The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

What do I want?

I'm not satisfied....

I really am not....

What exactly do I want? I've waited to see her today, and see her I did, had 2 lectures with her, but I'm not satisfied... I guess its cause there were other people..... like her friend.... Or issit due to the fact that she doesn't show me any more than friend type of concern.... *sigh* Now i've to wait for one whole week more.... unless I jio her out.... hmm.... should I? I think so..... wahhhaaaa..... maybe comin monday, when she doesn't have any lessons.... but I do.... damn.... tuesday then.... both of us are free..... damn.... the pain I have due to her.... without her playing any part in it.... its just a game I'm playing with my own heart..... my desires, my wants, my yearnings..... damn it!

Sigh.... if only this feeling could go away.... go away! This torment..... arghhh.....

-Emptiness-, this feeling.....

I wish I could just hide away.....

posted by - Emptiness - | 9:33 pm

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