The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Monday, December 27, 2004

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Issit really that hard to jio someone out? Or issit just me?

Why does it seem that people I like treat me just as a person who they can get help from? When they need me, they call me. When they don't, nothing heard out.... Worse than friends this is.... I feel so depressed... Where are the people who truly care, and like me for me? Where are those, who value friendship more than what they can benefit from me? Where are the people who I would truly consider as friends? Where are they all? Are they all hiding from me, in some corner of the world? Am I fated to live life like such?

With the new year comin, I feel like nothing has changed.... its still the same.... 2004, 2005, what is the difference? Absolutely nothing.... sux.... another year has gone by.....

Why?

posted by - Emptiness - | 1:11 am

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