Givin' up....
The passing feeling.....
The fading hurts....
Its all departing.....
The old reverts....
I'm being bothered less by her lack of concern already.... I mean, who else do I know of who smses replies back after like a whole day, and doesn't reply miss calls? Even friends don't do such.... There is a big difference between being nice on the facade, and being nice inside.... I don't care about the fluff.... what I want is the inside.... the person behind the mask....
Care I the decorated smses or msgs I get from her? No.... Decorations and cutesie messages just mislead others, hiding the real person behind a wall, opaque and impermeable to all... In fact, I hate it.... I rather people be themselves... at least I know who I am dealing with, adn the true nature of the person.... Apparently, once again I was deceived..... I really am a person who can't read people well I see.... But even up to this moment, she confuses me.... When I actually manage to talk to her, she seems ok, and very friendly, but her actions speak otherwise.... What is she thinking? What is her heart, hidden behind a veil of darkness? But at least, I know one thing for sure.... she is a very stuborn person.... Though it is hard to tell at first, once set on her path, she is headstrong in achieving it, regardless of reason.... (incidents include: Shop & Save guy, Cors bidding for Sem 2)....
I hope she continues like that, or proves to me soon that she is otherwise.... not in between or something, so that my liking for her can either die out fast, or I can find it easier to get closer to her.... either one is fine for me.... Lemme revert to who I was! To my initial emotions!!!! SET ME FREE PLEASE!!!!! Only you have the power to do so! Painful nevermind.... its ok.... just a short pain.... far better than this constant numbing pain I am experiencing now....
The fading hurts....
Its all departing.....
The old reverts....
I'm being bothered less by her lack of concern already.... I mean, who else do I know of who smses replies back after like a whole day, and doesn't reply miss calls? Even friends don't do such.... There is a big difference between being nice on the facade, and being nice inside.... I don't care about the fluff.... what I want is the inside.... the person behind the mask....
Care I the decorated smses or msgs I get from her? No.... Decorations and cutesie messages just mislead others, hiding the real person behind a wall, opaque and impermeable to all... In fact, I hate it.... I rather people be themselves... at least I know who I am dealing with, adn the true nature of the person.... Apparently, once again I was deceived..... I really am a person who can't read people well I see.... But even up to this moment, she confuses me.... When I actually manage to talk to her, she seems ok, and very friendly, but her actions speak otherwise.... What is she thinking? What is her heart, hidden behind a veil of darkness? But at least, I know one thing for sure.... she is a very stuborn person.... Though it is hard to tell at first, once set on her path, she is headstrong in achieving it, regardless of reason.... (incidents include: Shop & Save guy, Cors bidding for Sem 2)....
I hope she continues like that, or proves to me soon that she is otherwise.... not in between or something, so that my liking for her can either die out fast, or I can find it easier to get closer to her.... either one is fine for me.... Lemme revert to who I was! To my initial emotions!!!! SET ME FREE PLEASE!!!!! Only you have the power to do so! Painful nevermind.... its ok.... just a short pain.... far better than this constant numbing pain I am experiencing now....
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