Doushite?

Why must Pearl be so pretty? Why? If only she wasn't this pretty.... Every time I think about how pretty she is, I feel at a loss.... Confirm got alot of other guys chase after her.... how can I compare or compete with them?

What can I offer?
I don't have:
1. Looks
2. Money
3. Charm
4. Car
5. Many other things

I don't care if she was more ordinary looking.... I like her for the way she is.... The other side that I couldn't see when I first knew her.... The side behind the cheery facade.... I guess I like her because she reminds me so much of myself.... of the facade I always try to put up, and only recently let down in front of my close friends.... of the insecurity I feel that I stiffle and kill but is still deep within me.... of the emptiness I feel deep inside when i'm alone... of the yearning to have a person who is so close to me that I feel totally at ease with the person, like i'm by myself, and can share all my deepest feelings and thoughts, the things that I hide from everyone else.... and many other more things....

Everytime I think about this, I feel depressed and down.... I kinda liken it to 烂蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉... Damn sad.... Nevermind.... Don't think about it.... Just call her up tomolo and see how things go..... exams results out ya?