The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Religion

Once again.... the main problem in our relationship, or so she and her parents feel....

Religion...

I'm Christian, she's Christian... what's the big problem? She feels that I'm too staunch... But, I mean, if she is Christian too, and believes that God cares for us, and loves us more than any other, then why is she so unwilling to let God care? Why is she so unhappy that I am staunch? Why? Unless she believes that God doesn't care, doesn't love her... That God is out to harm her...

Does it make sense? What she says doesn't match what she wants me to do...

Why? I really really really really really really love her a lot... But there are somethings that I know I must not change... That there are some things that I cannot change if I really mean what I say when I say I love her...

posted by - Emptiness - | 4:09 am

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