Frustrated
I can't take it!
Been waiting so long just to hear from her when she comes back from Malaysia today, which is supposed ot be around 4pm... She never called, nor smsed me... So, I smsed her... Twice.... But no reply to either time... So I finally called her up at around 8pm... She told me she'll call me back... So I waited.... for 5 hours...
Arnd 12.00am: I called her again, she said she'll call me back again... and she sounded fierce...
Arnd 1.00am: She called, saying that she'll go wash her face, then call me back..
Arnd 1.20am: I called her... She doesn't take that long to wash her face... She just said she'll call me back...
Arnd 2:00am: Now... I'm still waiting for her call...
Arghhhhhhhhhhh.... Just to talk to her, after so long, is so painful... Its not that wound kind of pain... its that slow, tearing of my spirit... not knowing what she is up to... not knowing how she feels for me... and I start to question her love for me... And she complains that she feels abandoned (refer to that yenjun incident)... This is much worse... and this is not the first time... She tells me she feels abandoned... how bout me? Sounding so fierce, so formal, so cold, telling me she'll call back, making me wait for hours, not even an sms... What is she up to? Doesn't she know how I feel, and how her actions cause my heart to go up and down?
Hello! I'm feeling abandoned here too.... And my feeling actually has more reason and basis than her's... She knows for sure I'm not interested in yenjun, and that I don't even see her / go out with her... But I know that she does go out with sherning...
Furthermore, I never make her wait for hours just to talk to me.... Why does she always do this to me? Why?!?!?! Damn it! I can't take it!!!! At least an sms.... just one.... but nono..... Just tell me what you are doing.... please?
Can't you see that I've opened my heart to you? That I've let down all my defenses? Can't you see that to you, I'm totally vulnerable? Can't you see that I'm weak and frail, a helpless puppy at your command? To others, I don't open my heart to them... how they treat me, I don't care... but you......
*sigh*
Been waiting so long just to hear from her when she comes back from Malaysia today, which is supposed ot be around 4pm... She never called, nor smsed me... So, I smsed her... Twice.... But no reply to either time... So I finally called her up at around 8pm... She told me she'll call me back... So I waited.... for 5 hours...
Arnd 12.00am: I called her again, she said she'll call me back again... and she sounded fierce...
Arnd 1.00am: She called, saying that she'll go wash her face, then call me back..
Arnd 1.20am: I called her... She doesn't take that long to wash her face... She just said she'll call me back...
Arnd 2:00am: Now... I'm still waiting for her call...
Arghhhhhhhhhhh.... Just to talk to her, after so long, is so painful... Its not that wound kind of pain... its that slow, tearing of my spirit... not knowing what she is up to... not knowing how she feels for me... and I start to question her love for me... And she complains that she feels abandoned (refer to that yenjun incident)... This is much worse... and this is not the first time... She tells me she feels abandoned... how bout me? Sounding so fierce, so formal, so cold, telling me she'll call back, making me wait for hours, not even an sms... What is she up to? Doesn't she know how I feel, and how her actions cause my heart to go up and down?
Hello! I'm feeling abandoned here too.... And my feeling actually has more reason and basis than her's... She knows for sure I'm not interested in yenjun, and that I don't even see her / go out with her... But I know that she does go out with sherning...
Furthermore, I never make her wait for hours just to talk to me.... Why does she always do this to me? Why?!?!?! Damn it! I can't take it!!!! At least an sms.... just one.... but nono..... Just tell me what you are doing.... please?
Can't you see that I've opened my heart to you? That I've let down all my defenses? Can't you see that to you, I'm totally vulnerable? Can't you see that I'm weak and frail, a helpless puppy at your command? To others, I don't open my heart to them... how they treat me, I don't care... but you......
*sigh*
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