The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Quarrels again....

15 Aug 2005 Mon

My aching heart calls out her name,
Never did I treat us as just a game.
Doesn't matter who is to blame,
If it ends like this its such a shame.

I'm tired....
So tired....

Quarrels suck. Why do we even quarrel? Actually more like she is throwing temper.... but what the hack... I hate it so very much... I just want to spend time with her enjoying ourselves... I give up all other activities, except church basically for her.... even my part time job I quit with immediate effect just to make her happy at the expense of my boss and other collegues... What else does she want? I spend every free moment with her, and she is still not satisfied and still quarrels with me? I really don't get it.... I really don't get her..... damn!@?@!#!

posted by - Emptiness - | 1:54 am

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