The void
Why do I want to look good?
Why do I want to be charismatic?
Why do I want to be rich?
Why do I want to be popular?
Everything boils down to the longing for someone, a girlfriend to share with... a deep relationship....
If not for this, does it really matter? Does it really matter if I am bald? I can look like the Hunchback of Notredame for all I care. I can just walk or take MRT to get from point A to point B. I can just be a nobody at school. I don't need that newest computer or laptop, though it would be nice to have it.
Seriously, who cares about the EVO VIII or STI REX, who gives a damn? Not me... not now at least.... Seriously, I think Maslow made a big boo boo when he did his hierachy of needs.... I'd say that relationship should be at the bottom level... the most basic needs.... Instead of relationship, he put sex there.... I don't need that.... is that really that important?
I wish there was a way of expressing the longing I feel now.... It hurts when you like someone, and know that she doesn't feel the same way too.... Sure does... But what can I do? There isn't much I can think of right now.... HELP!!!!! Desires desires.... Why torment my poor soul? Can't I just be satisfied with what I have right now? Must I strive for what I cannot have?
I think of her, and I know that I really shouldn't be liking her.... cause I have NOTHING to give to her.... I'm not rich, I'm not handsome, I'm not charismatic, I'm not humourous..... The only thing I reckon I can give, is my concern for her.... and that is totally useless to her... What is the use of concern? Can't really help her much... Then why do I want such? Concern, care and love? Why? Up till date, all it has brought me is pain, and has not helped me one single bit... Is it possible for me to just stifle all my feelings, suffocate it so that it just dies off? It would be better for me and her, and she can go find some rich guy, and lead a happy life ever after..... or should I say more happy than if she were with me.... I'm sure she has the capability of doing so.... She has a nice personality, and the looks to couple it....
Damn it....
Helplessness.....
Why do I want to be charismatic?
Why do I want to be rich?
Why do I want to be popular?
Everything boils down to the longing for someone, a girlfriend to share with... a deep relationship....
If not for this, does it really matter? Does it really matter if I am bald? I can look like the Hunchback of Notredame for all I care. I can just walk or take MRT to get from point A to point B. I can just be a nobody at school. I don't need that newest computer or laptop, though it would be nice to have it.
Seriously, who cares about the EVO VIII or STI REX, who gives a damn? Not me... not now at least.... Seriously, I think Maslow made a big boo boo when he did his hierachy of needs.... I'd say that relationship should be at the bottom level... the most basic needs.... Instead of relationship, he put sex there.... I don't need that.... is that really that important?
I wish there was a way of expressing the longing I feel now.... It hurts when you like someone, and know that she doesn't feel the same way too.... Sure does... But what can I do? There isn't much I can think of right now.... HELP!!!!! Desires desires.... Why torment my poor soul? Can't I just be satisfied with what I have right now? Must I strive for what I cannot have?
I think of her, and I know that I really shouldn't be liking her.... cause I have NOTHING to give to her.... I'm not rich, I'm not handsome, I'm not charismatic, I'm not humourous..... The only thing I reckon I can give, is my concern for her.... and that is totally useless to her... What is the use of concern? Can't really help her much... Then why do I want such? Concern, care and love? Why? Up till date, all it has brought me is pain, and has not helped me one single bit... Is it possible for me to just stifle all my feelings, suffocate it so that it just dies off? It would be better for me and her, and she can go find some rich guy, and lead a happy life ever after..... or should I say more happy than if she were with me.... I'm sure she has the capability of doing so.... She has a nice personality, and the looks to couple it....
Damn it....
Helplessness.....
posted by - Emptiness - | 1:54 am
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