The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Thursday, December 09, 2004

--- Peace --- *At least for the moment.*...

Finally, eureka! I suddenly thought of just calling her at home, instead of her handphone, to find out what's wrong... and, *surprise surprise*, I could get hold of her! Wow! That has not happened for sometime already.... Anyway, had a nice chat with her, and found out that her LG handphone was having PMS again... Why do people even bother with Korean products? The only export of any interest from that country would have to be Bae Yong Jun, the Winter Sonata guy.... He had legions of Japanese women swooning over him at Narita airport just recently... Anything else, please, forget it... Anyway, I suddenly realise I can't remember what we talked about..... other than the dental thingy... goodness.... I think my memory problem is getting more serious... wahhhaa.... hack... doesn't really matter.... One less memory, one less worry.... right? I guess so.... But there are some things I had better not forget.... for instance, that I am supposed to meet her later today at 6:30pm.... My memory had better not fail me then.... haha... I'd kill myself...

I was just able to write about say some stuff about free dental checkups, but realise, what the hack... doesn't fit with my theme here.... supposed to be about inner most thoughts, the space in between.... i'll just throw it in my other blog.... haha...

Anyway, I guess I can't really be sad when i'm going to meet her eh? Its hard to maintain a depressed mood when I'm not at the moment.... Shouldn't try to.... though just listening to some of them Final Fantasy X piano songs would do the trick in a jiffy.... However, even though I should be quite happy now, don't ask me why, there is still a slight lingering sense of something missing.... I've no idea what that is... I guess with the ups, must come the downs -- with happiness, must come sadness., joy with sorrow, excitement with boredom.... Such is life I guess.... Is there anything that I, or anyone else can do to change it? I doubt so.... Just live with it I guess....

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