The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Frustration

Drilling drilling drilling... someone should just throw something at them... The only enjoyment in my life, my sleep, where dreams seem so real, was once again unduely interrupted at 8am in the morning.... Can't they find something else to do that to keep up with the HDB upgrading scheme? It's like a battlezone here, everyday, from 8am to 5pm, I hear all sorts of funny noises -- Drilling, sawing, shouting, and drilling. Even once nice HDB blocks look like monsters now... Usually, blocks have 2 lifts each.... The ones here are going to have 5!!!! I mean, how many lifts do you possibly need? I don't think there are that many wierdos who go around Singapore visiting the different lifts just for experience or what not... Anyway, what's up with some people not replying my smses? Seems like they take it as a hobby, to reply me like hours later, or some, even days.... Is it supposed to be like wine? Better with age? I haven't got all day! Life is as short as it is! Though, at times I wish it was shorter....

If only I had a digital camera, I would be taking so many more photos... Photography is one of the ways to express yourself in my opinion... Emotions and thoughts, all can be conveyed through just one simple photo... But since I don't have a camera.... I reckon the next best alternative is to learn how to draw.... Perhaps one day I can draw actual landscapes that can convey my thoughts and feelings...

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