The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Saturday, February 05, 2005

My dream is going up in smoke already...

Smsed her at 9pm to ask her if everything is alright (she was with gw)... No reply
Called her at 10:45pm, no reply
Called her at 11:30pm, no reply
11:56pm, she smsed, "Call you in a while"
1:26am, she smsed, "I call u tml instead k... i need to talk to my mummy.. anyway c u tml night :)"

I know what happened.... (I'm pretty sure about it, deducing it from above)
GW said something or wat not, that moved her, and now she is unsure who she should choose, GW or me. This kinda sux... What should I do? I never should have liked her in the first place actually...


Letting You Go -- By -Emptiness-

I love you so,
That I let you go.
To have the freedom,
To build your kingdom.

And so you left,
And never returned.
Leaving me alone,
All on my own.

Throughout this time,
I’m waiting for you to find,
What you’ve been searching for,
A sincere heart’s lonely call.

Now that you’ve seen,
What would have been.
Will you return,
And from him turn?

Or will you still,
Go astray until,
Your heart can no longer find,
Its way back to mine?

posted by - Emptiness - | 1:34 am

0 Comments:

Post a Comment

<< Home