The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Friday, February 04, 2005

Alex, Sherning and GW

Hmm.... how many guys can I meet in one day who are interested in her? More than one finger, less than a handful. -_-"

Started off with Alex. Went to meet Pearl at The Deck during lunch, and she was chatting away with Alex there. It's so obvious that Alex likes her, specially jioing her out for lunch. Anyway, that's not important. So we chatted there, about all sorts of nonsense, until Liang Qiao, and his 'gf' (not too sure if she is) came around looking for a table, so we vacated the table and let them have it. Went to the lib next to study and stuff. Alex stayed around for another 1 hour or so, before leaving...

Next, Sherning. Came at about 3++pm, for no apparent reason. I guess he was surprised when he saw me there seated next to her. Hmm... maybe this will deter him a bit, but I seriously doubt so... So, once again, we had a long chat, ranging from psychology, to thailand prostitutes... -_-" Anyway, she had to go off for classes soon after, and it was just me and him, sitting there, chatting... Soon, he had to leave too, just before 6pm, and I waited there for her. Thought of going with her to eat western at fong seng, but then she didn't reply my sms.... only the 2nd time I sent it to her, did she reply... Let me just blame it on starhub...

Anyway, the reason why she didn't want to go out and eat, most probably, was due to the fact that GW, her ex, or her would be ex (she's trying to break up with him) came to see her, wanting to talk to her. So, my guess is that she wanted to quickly go home... who knows.... Sometimes, a mind too complex is not good... So, helped her get her stuff, and together, the 3 of us walked to the bus stop, where I then said goodbye, and went on to eat western at fong seng by myself. (Note to self: Western, or watever you eat, however good, if it isn't with the person you enjoy being with, loses its taste...)

As I wrote before, I sometimes wished she wasn't this pretty... It would be so much easier I guess....

*sigh*.....................

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