The Space In Between: October 2005

The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Monday, October 10, 2005

It's already 3.40 in the morning...
I've been on the phone for hours...
Before we sleep can't you just whisper,
Some sweet nothings into my ear?

Instead, with a huge hammer,
You smash my fragile heart.
How could you be so callous?
I really ain't quite really sure.

I've already tried my best to give,
All that I possibly could.
My sleep, my time, my everything,
All just for you my dear.

But you don't even seem,
To give a damn to what I do,
And you're not even moved that
After all you've done I'm still here?

So why can't you just soften,
Just a little -

And just stop trashing me up
Like how a little girl tears up her
Helpless soft toys in a momentous
Fit of uncontrollable anger?

The Space In Between

Monday, October 10, 2005

Thursday, October 06, 2005