The Space In Between

You know the times, when you wake up in the morning and stare blankly into the ceiling, and wonder, "What should I do today?" That's basically my life. Real fun. Life's like a neverending cycle of contradictions. Waiting in earnest for exams to be over, only to dread the boredom of having nothing to do in the holidays. Perhaps its just me, but I bet i'm not the only one. I have to admit that there are things to do, people to meet, games to play, movies to watch, books to read. But always, something missing. Even in the company of friends, the lingering feeling is always there, like a phantom stalking me, ready to pounce at me the moment the fun and laughter stops. That's the emptiness I feel, which seems to paint my surroundings grey and dull, bleak and inanimate. Emptiness, the place in between, a place where no one else can enter, that time just seems to stand still......

Friday, February 11, 2005

Hmm....

I just posted the previous blog, and was reading thru wat happened the day before... the day that Pearl met my mum... and the feeling now is totally different from when I read it yesterday...

I vaguely remember that I was v.happy yesterday... but now that feeling is all gone... The same words, evoke totally different feelings now... Now, its just the feeling of emptiness, loneliness... yar... that dreary feeling... Not exactly like what I felt that day when I was with Mark (the post about my dream going up in smoke already), but v.bad still...

damn...

emotions....

posted by - Emptiness - | 2:15 am

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